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I REALLY NEED A PLACE TO POUR EVERYTHING OUT, WHICH IS HERE. As from my msn pm: Just because of a moment of foolishness, i fell into a super duper big hole :/ And yeah for that big hole, im referring it to njc. I dislike the life im having right now. Like seriously. I hate everything im experiencing except for njc basketball and my mates. The people in school are.. really fake. In jurong, we gossip at most one a week? Or a month? In njc, you do that everyday. Friends aint that innocent anymore, you dk even if they backstabbed you. I hope nobody ever backstab me. And i must say, the ppl here are really weird.. I cant fit in into the environment, how i wished i went to jjc or sajc or cjc? Okay idk, i just wish i wasnt in njc. Should have really listened to advices given, i really dont like that place. Just bcos i thought i would bang into _ often since _'s skl is opp? I only bang into _ for one time in 3-4 months? Why am i so dumb? Like i will end up knowing him? Wts was i thinking! How i wish that one day he will freaking know that i enrolled myself into an elite skl to suffer just bcos of a stupid crush on him. Yes, even though i feel proud of myself wearing njc uniform while walking on streets i dont feel happy. I dont even talk that much in skl except during trngs. Ppl say i look 'dao'? I cant be my real self seriously. I feel like an idiot in skl. I aint making loads of friends, furthermore good friends. Everyday its either study or bball, study or bball, study or bball. I miss jurong, i miss sylvia and shaf, i miss everything. I miss going to church regularly, i miss hanging out with my church mates. And i cant seem to not tear while typing this post. God bless me.